People have been asking me if I'm enjoying my post A levels life.

My answer to me is mostly that i feel life is even more stressful after A levels

They usually tell me I'm crazy, but let me try to explain myself.

Firstly, I have been out every single day since A levels ended, and this is set to continue until the end of next week.

A peek at my post A levels hectic schedule:

Tuesday, 18 Nov: Last day of exams. Went out to buy stuff for class BBQ in the afternoon. Out of house from 0777 hrs to 1530hrs

Wednesday, 19 Nov: Class Chalet. Out of house from 1500hrs to 2300 hrs

Thursday and Friday: Class Chalet and BBQ. Out of house from 1400hrs on thurs to 1200hrs on friday

Saturday: Pitstop fellowship, regular fellowship, service and followup, out of house from 1000hrs to 2230 hrs

Sunday: Chariskidz. Out of house from 0700hrs to 1400hrs

Monday, 24 Nov: Bible study cum dinner at Uncle Aaron's house, out of house from 1700hrs to 2100hrs

Tuesday 25 Nov: Prom shopping with the class guys, out from 1200hrs to 2200 hrs

Wednesday 26 Nov: Followup with Albert, Guanhua's friend, out of house from 1700hrs to 2030 hrs

Thursday: Meet up with Zainul and Shuqian, exclassmates, out from 1230hrs to 1830hrs

Friday: BBQ at Erwin's place, out from 1500hrs to 2330hrs

And looking forward, here's my schedule

Saturday, 29 Nov: Song practice, Fellowship, service and Followup, out of house from 0800hrs to 2200 hrs

Sunday: Chariskidz and fellowship planning, out from 0700hrs to 1400hrs

Monday: Soccer witht the class guys, meet up to go borders shopping with shaun and YJ, and BS in the evening, out of house from 0900hrs to 2200hrs

Tuesday: Followup with the P6, details tentative

Wednesday 3 Dec: Dinner and Dance, 1700hrs to 0000hrs

Thursday: Celebrate Dad's Birthday, out from dunno when

Friday: Out with Nigel

Saturday and Sunday: the usual stuff

So i have a total of 20 days of unbroken busyness from the end of A levels. How to rest? How not to stress?

You just don't understand me

So its now one week before our Dinner and Dance 2008.....and time to shop for clothes.

Today i met up with a few of the guys in my class to go Bugis to shop for suitable outfits for our prom....and I pretty much kept within my budget of 100 dollars.

I only spent 60 bucks on a shirt and several accessories.. i guess i saved because i already have a pair of leathers and pants at home. We mainly shopped at Bugis Street...but we also browsed at Topman, Giodarno and Bossini at Bugis Juction. Too bad we couldn't find a Bata...so we just have to get shoes on our own.

I also saw this really chic shirt at Bugis street...it had silver ribbons and frills and looked quite eclectic overall, which suits my taste, so I bought it to wear at Christmas parties.

Interestingly we also met Gladys and her cousin, who happened to be in the vicinity due to some reason which i cant recall.

Total expenditure today is just under 95 bucks. So we shopped from 1 to 6 and then ate dinner at the nearby kopitiam...and then we went home.

Last stop for me was Borders at Wheelock Place, as I still havent spent my Borders voucher we won at SSEF this year. Having earmarked the books I want makes it easier to get them the next time I go there with my SSEF buddies.

I never really bothered about dressing for the occasion, but this might be one of the rare occasions i guess.

Can't wait for D&D to come!

I know for sure some people are going to say my new blogskin is GAY.

If you are one of those people please let me know by tagging

But as for me I find this skin rather nice and dreamy

And I don't really care two hoots whether people think its gay or not.

But just to find out people's opinion, please tag and let me know.

The author of this skin claimed its only suitable for girls. I'm out to prove her wrong.

But since most of my close friends say I'm 1/3 female already, who cares?

I like to think of myself as a ubersensitive and elegant male with slight feminist leanings

But I'm still a guy and I'm damn proud of my manhood, if you'll pardon the language.

Oh and A levels are officially over, but everything feels the same.

YES! I WILL SOON BE FREE!

But life after A's will be just as busy....and theres a lot to do

I realise that I've lost about a kilo of weight over the A level period....and I really need to exercise.

Thankfully I'm still as tanned as ever.....its in my genes.

I still have to wait for tuesday for my papers to end.

Kayaking on wednesday (weather permitting), and chalet cum bbq on thurs and fri

this weekend I'm back! Yay!

Miss a lot of ppl especially my P6 kids

And the youth too....didn't have much chance to talk

Miss the JC2 bunch too.

And all the wonderful teachers at chariskidz haha

Finally the rain is letting up

9 papers down and only one more to go next tuesday.

Thanks all for your prayers and encouragement. The storm is almost over, and its almost time to start picking up the pieces.

Since the last paper's MCQ, theres not much to study, so I went to visit the new Yishun Library at Northpoint on my way home.

It was pretty packed today because its opening day but still, the ambience was rather good, though a little noisy.

The layout of the library leaves much to be desired however. having only one entrance and occupying the highest floor of the mall, it was quite crowded with little room for manoeuvouring around. Subsequently I nearly crashed into quite a number of (quite chio) girls as I flitted between the shelves. Its a little too close for comfort, but at least its better than the old library.

However as the library had only one entrance, visitors had to travel all the way to the end of the library to reach the fiction section. And one reason why it was so noisy was perhaps because the reading areas and childrens corner and reception and borrowing area were all situated in the same area next to the entrance. So a lot of noise and traffic (you know how irritating small kids can be in a library)

I borrowed two books which I will only read after my last paper: The Children of Hurin by JRR Tolkien, and Girls gone Mild by Wendy Shalit. The latter promises to be quite an interesting read, as the author claims that girls in our modern world actually desire to live their own lives and not conform to the media and culture stereotypes of bikini clad skinny girls with bad attitude and need for sexual liberation.

Yishun library promses to be a good place to chill and soak up a good read, but not really good for studying because of the limited tables. However the slightly cramped spaces do provide a perfect excuse for bumping into (pretty, chio) girls, which will definitely keep your day interesting. Just be careful not to stare too much:P

By the way, I wonder why there are disproportionately more girls than guys in libraries these days? You will hardly see any guy just going there to pick up a good book. Mostly its for studying.

Good luck with the girls, guys

3 papers down, 7 more to go and I have a splitting headache and a sore throat today.

How fortunate

*cough

GP was ok, Physics was ok, Maths was screwed.

Chemistry tmr, maths after that and its the weekends

Hope I reach there in one piece.

So it all comes down to this.

2 years worth of preparation culminates in 2 weeks worth of examinations

20 hours left till crunch time and what am I doing? I'm facebooking and blogging

Am I prepared? Definitely not.

Am I composed? I sincerely hope so.

This is either the last chance for redemption or the final coup de grace.

Lets analyse this from God's view.

Reasons for God to allow me to do well:
1) To bless me with good results
2) To glorify God with my grades
3) To ensure I get a good place in uni

Reasons for God to allow me to not do well:
1) To make me dependent on Him and not my ability of intellect
2) To humble me
3) To break me so that I can be used in my weakness for Him

But then, who am I to speak for God?

God will do with me as He pleases. His ways are not my ways. I will never be able to fully understand His reasons or His MO

I only need to trust and obey

Easy in theory, very difficult in practice

My intellect is my last bastion of confidence, apart from God of course.

I can lose my reputation, I can lose my physical health, I can part with whatever glamour or success in being a student leader, I can lose desire in pursuing all hobbies and interests, I can lose my confidence and passion, I can lose my good looks, I can bear to lose friends(though i will be very heartbroken) but I cannot bear, cannot bear to lose my intelligence. In fact I have already lost all that through the to years in AJC. I only have God and my intellect left.

Which makes for very good grounds for God to take that last piece of my self-identity away from me. Because a self-identity built on 100% God is the only self-identity God wants us to have. Not to put faith in ourselves, but put faith entirely on Him

Possibly thats what Pastor Sylvia talked about yesterday, about how we need to have a spiritual mindset. And a spiritual mindset is one that focuses entirely on who God is, not who we are.

So in all probability, I will not do as well as I hope for the A levels. That still does not exucse me from giving it my best shot now.

Shit. How How How How Howwwwwwww???????????????

Im so nervous now that I have to blog before continuing to study

Strangely, I feel like laughing

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OK STOP!

calm down

deep breaths

go and pray

hard
very hard
very very very hard

ok

19 hours left

its showtime

lets go

good bye

farewell

adios

shalom

the final swansong is about to begin.