The Misery of TESTS


I flunked all my tests!!!!!!!!

First rite, for A Maths i got C5 and 23/40 overall.....so siann....even GKY win me....
Junkai scored full marks...how can he do that? its like hes some maths genius. Really did badly, but fortunately i don't have the unfortunate pleasure of meeting Mrs Koh early Wed morning...thats reserved for the failures. Still, i aren't quite in her good books....she might just force me to join.


Then, Chemistry. i got 21\42, a just pass, and found to my horror that i COULD HAVE GOTTEN 13 MARKS MORE if not due to extreme CARELESSNESS...... most mistakes were calculation errors that were so obvious. Could have gotten a 34 but guess i was to hurried, overconfident and complacent when i did the paper.


i'm going to have a real busy week this week, CCA from tuesday to Saturday.....and tons of other stuff to do.
on a hindnote, today I read sth interesting in the newspaper. it said:


98 OUT OF 100 SINGAPOREANS OWN MOBILE PHONES


I'M ONE OF THE OTHER TWO THAT DON'T.


anyone kind enuf to buy me one???????Hahas

It's been a rollercoaster of emotions for me this past three days.....let me just start from the beginning....


SATURDAY, 6.30 PM


Todays fellowship has just ended, and I'm happily kicking ball with the rest outside. I'm supposed to go for a youth committee meeting at 7.30, but I assume that its to discuss future planning of fellowships. He didn't come today, which is surprising, as he always does. Ten minutes later, I quit and go to cool down before the meeting starts.


SATURDAY, 7.45 PM


I meet with the three advisors and Ethel, Ting An, Niujin, Nicole and Jason Yong in the nursery. Chairs are set and we wait patiently for Pastor Tham to arrive. At this point, i sense something amiss. Where was he?


Saturday 7.46 PM


Pastor comes in and we fall deathly quiet. His first words send us in shock and dumbfoundedness. He said, "I've bad news for you. He has been...dismissed...for insubordination."

I reel from the news. My perfect world comes crashing down.


SATURDAY 8.30, PM


He xplained things to our shocked selves clearly and firmly. We could not believe what we've heard. As the meeting adjournes, I ask for a word with Pastor, the content of which i'll not divulge here.


SUNDAY 1.15 AM


Emotionally drained, i drifted into troubled sleep, spent.


SUNDAY 8.45 AM


I share my views with nicole, and ditto for her. We are both sombre, dreading when Senior Pastor will tell the church today. Most of the youth are still unaware, and i listen to their bubbly conversation soberly. i couldn't worship well today. Kenneth talks with me and clears my remaining doubts.


SUNDAY 2.00 PM


After a long while, Senior Pastor breaks the news to everyone. Many of us are overcome with tears, and for some the reality just hasn't settled in. From now onwards, Jaime and Pastor Tham will take over the youth ministry.



Its Monday today, and we still are in shock, some of us. there is sadness and shock. the fear and uncertainty over the future is palpabe. i admit i'm also at a loss now, wondering how will the youth survive now. i guess the only thing to do now is trust the Lord that he has us safe in His arms, and will carry us through this difficult time. all this has just shown that we cannot put our trust in the most godly of our spiritual leaders. we can only put our hope and trust in CHRIST alone, for man is still imperpect and sinful.


He has done a lot for the youth, and sometimes we take for granted. we've just lost a dear brother, mentor and friend, who, despite his leadership, is still imperfect. During this time of uncertainity, the LoRD reminds me of this hymn, which incidentally, we sang on saturday:


Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
know his power
in quietness and trust


When the oceans rise and thunders roar
i will soar with you
above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
i will be still and know
You are God


"trust in the LoRD with all you heart, and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will straighten your path"

Parade again today, as usuall, i calculated about only 10 more parades to go before close session, so for all of us its nearly time to take a break. For those who don't know i have a blog, well, now you knoww, and now you must link me or else i'll bug you to death.......

Don't worry, tagboard will be up soon and hopefully, music. Hope you lyk my blogskin, its really very nice.....

BB today was well, rather routine, though i drilled sec 1s like mad. So did my eputy, whom i have lost hope in. its really difficult now o see him change, and i'll suppose he'll hate me until we reconcile in Heaven, but, he keeps turning down my offers of peace, so what can i do? i'm not saying he's right or wrong, but i just wish he'll treat me better.

At least now he's getting back his old interest for BB, even slightly. i guess BB was'nt for him in the first place. He still quarrels with me and does things independent of my approval or knowledge, and ther's always this bitterness and hatred i sense in his voice every time he snaps at me.( it seems he only talks by snapping or barking at me, so he's lyk a ,um, hissing turtle??nvm...)

Haizz....life is full of trials and tribulations, but then again, many of life's blessings and most meaningful lessons God disguises as pain and suffering. perhaps you would disagree, but suffering is one of the best teachers around.

....signing off now, going for youth and soccer later.....YESS!!!!!!
BYEEEEE.............................. :)

Waaaahhhhhh siannnxxx....i'm damn pissed today lor...a certain someone doesn't have the proper respect for his superiors....its like...he broke schoolrules in the teachers and my face todae lorrr....so angryyy

never mind, i'm still keeping my cool(more or less) but this will happen again, i'm so sure about it...

..late for two consecutive days lorr, dunno why cannot wake up, juz feeling tired all day..

so kena two detention already lor. write until so tired liao..hands dropping off

i think i'll have a very unusual track record...about 10 demerits, 7 detentions and stellar sucess in cca and academic results....i'm very hard to predict, i guess...

need to sleep noww...so bye bye, or else i late again.....