It's been a rollercoaster of emotions for me this past three days.....let me just start from the beginning....
SATURDAY, 6.30 PM
Todays fellowship has just ended, and I'm happily kicking ball with the rest outside. I'm supposed to go for a youth committee meeting at 7.30, but I assume that its to discuss future planning of fellowships. He didn't come today, which is surprising, as he always does. Ten minutes later, I quit and go to cool down before the meeting starts.
SATURDAY, 7.45 PM
I meet with the three advisors and Ethel, Ting An, Niujin, Nicole and Jason Yong in the nursery. Chairs are set and we wait patiently for Pastor Tham to arrive. At this point, i sense something amiss. Where was he?
Saturday 7.46 PM
Pastor comes in and we fall deathly quiet. His first words send us in shock and dumbfoundedness. He said, "I've bad news for you. Hehas been...dismissed...for insubordination."
I reel from the news. My perfect world comes crashing down.
SATURDAY 8.30, PM
He xplained things to our shocked selves clearly and firmly. We could not believe what we've heard. As the meeting adjournes, I ask for a word with Pastor, the content of which i'll not divulge here.
SUNDAY 1.15 AM
Emotionally drained, i drifted into troubled sleep, spent.
SUNDAY 8.45 AM
I share my views with nicole, and ditto for her. We are both sombre, dreading when Senior Pastor will tell the church today. Most of the youth are still unaware, and i listen to their bubbly conversation soberly. i couldn't worship well today. Kenneth talks with me and clears my remaining doubts.
SUNDAY 2.00 PM
After a long while, Senior Pastor breaks the news to everyone. Many of us are overcome with tears, and for some the reality just hasn't settled in. From now onwards, Jaime and Pastor Tham will take over the youth ministry.
Its Monday today, and we still are in shock, some of us. there is sadness and shock. the fear and uncertainty over the future is palpabe. i admit i'm also at a loss now, wondering how will the youth survive now. i guess the only thing to do now is trust the Lord that he has us safe in His arms, and will carry us through this difficult time. all this has just shown that we cannot put our trust in the most godly of our spiritual leaders. we can only put our hope and trust in CHRIST alone, for man is still imperpect and sinful.
He has done a lot for the youth, and sometimes we take for granted. we've just lost a dear brother, mentor and friend, who, despite his leadership, is still imperfect. During this time of uncertainity, the LoRD reminds me of this hymn, which incidentally, we sang on saturday:
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
know his power
in quietness and trust
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
i will soar with you
above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
i will be still and know
You are God
"trust in the LoRD with all you heart, and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will straighten your path"
SATURDAY, 6.30 PM
Todays fellowship has just ended, and I'm happily kicking ball with the rest outside. I'm supposed to go for a youth committee meeting at 7.30, but I assume that its to discuss future planning of fellowships. He didn't come today, which is surprising, as he always does. Ten minutes later, I quit and go to cool down before the meeting starts.
SATURDAY, 7.45 PM
I meet with the three advisors and Ethel, Ting An, Niujin, Nicole and Jason Yong in the nursery. Chairs are set and we wait patiently for Pastor Tham to arrive. At this point, i sense something amiss. Where was he?
Saturday 7.46 PM
Pastor comes in and we fall deathly quiet. His first words send us in shock and dumbfoundedness. He said, "I've bad news for you. He
I reel from the news. My perfect world comes crashing down.
SATURDAY 8.30, PM
He xplained things to our shocked selves clearly and firmly. We could not believe what we've heard. As the meeting adjournes, I ask for a word with Pastor, the content of which i'll not divulge here.
SUNDAY 1.15 AM
Emotionally drained, i drifted into troubled sleep, spent.
SUNDAY 8.45 AM
I share my views with nicole, and ditto for her. We are both sombre, dreading when Senior Pastor will tell the church today. Most of the youth are still unaware, and i listen to their bubbly conversation soberly. i couldn't worship well today. Kenneth talks with me and clears my remaining doubts.
SUNDAY 2.00 PM
After a long while, Senior Pastor breaks the news to everyone. Many of us are overcome with tears, and for some the reality just hasn't settled in. From now onwards, Jaime and Pastor Tham will take over the youth ministry.
Its Monday today, and we still are in shock, some of us. there is sadness and shock. the fear and uncertainty over the future is palpabe. i admit i'm also at a loss now, wondering how will the youth survive now. i guess the only thing to do now is trust the Lord that he has us safe in His arms, and will carry us through this difficult time. all this has just shown that we cannot put our trust in the most godly of our spiritual leaders. we can only put our hope and trust in CHRIST alone, for man is still imperpect and sinful.
He has done a lot for the youth, and sometimes we take
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
know his power
in quietness and trust
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
i will soar with you
above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
i will be still and know
You are God
"trust in the LoRD with all you heart, and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will straighten your path"
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