Brings back the memories...




jeriel has been added to the conversation.

[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
HAYYYYYYYZ
jeriel says:
hey!!!1
grats jeremy on getting gold!
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
haha thanks...you got gold also no big deal haha
wonder if ivys here
jeriel says:
haha
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
next sunday dinner getogether shld be fine but need to confirm with her
she never reply me
jeriel says:
haha ok
but try to make it at abt 6 can
cause my book in usually is 2200
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
i'm flexible...think she is too
jeriel says:
haha
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
so we need to nail down what place and what time
jeriel says:
ok good
ok
any suggestions?
oh ya place we decided alr right
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
hmm the flamingg mangos thing rite
jeriel says:
yep
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
im okay la just think 20++ a bit too ex
but once in a while......i wanna ask v on her opinion
jeriel says:
oh ok
it's not 20 ++ l
la~
maybe 16?
20 max la if you dont order too ex
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
that time u told me 20 ++
jeriel says:
i was just preparing you for the worst
haha
20plus is still possible if we order too much
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
hmm ok...or if we add in some wine?
jeriel says:
hmm then 20plus is sure hit one
are you comfortable with that?
if not we can always find cheaper alternatives
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
with wine i'm prepared to pay 20++
jeriel says:
yup
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
hokay...ivy still not replying...lets try nudging

You have just sent a nudge.

jeriel says:
haha

jeriel just sent you a nudge.

Ivy says:
oi

justcame back
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
worked
jeriel says:
hahahhaha
hahahhaa
VVVVVVV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg too emotional
Ivy says:
haha

too emotional

wah, want to drink wine ah

jeriel says:
haha too long nvr talk to you alr
Ivy says:
haha
yup yup
how are u guys enjoying army
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
yeyayea
Ivy says:
my hols just started
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
can't wait to ORD
jeriel says:
haha field camp sucks!
Ivy says:
yayness!
haha
field camp...
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
field camp sucks is right
jeriel says:
haha i so want to be a girl
hahahaha
Ivy says:
haha
girl girl
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
right you would make a very interesting girl
Ivy says:
haha

a girl who would get ippt gold

so anyways, where are u all goin for uni
jeriel says:
haha
Ivy says:
Jeriel, i just saw ur brothers' pics on ur facebo
haha
so cute!
jeriel says:
NUS (hopefully)
Ivy says:
and they have grown up
jeriel says:
really
Ivy says:
haha
jeriel says:
i'm cute too right
haha
Ivy says:
NUS wad course
jeriel says:
FASS
you>
Ivy says:
Jeriel, u're extremely cute, so cute that u go past the max for cuteness and go back one round to min
haha
jeriel says:
hahahahha
Ivy says:
FASS...wow
wad u plan to do
jeriel says:
that just makes me extra cute
Ivy says:
i'm doing bioengineering in ntu

jeriel no shame
haha
jeriel says:
i'm doing philosophy
Ivy says:
where
jeriel says:
haha
NUS la
Ivy says:
FASS
jeriel says:
yes
Ivy says:

i tot u wanted to go overseas or something
philosophy
wah
jeriel says:
actually my army camp is just beside NTU
haha
yea i wanted to but my grades cant make it
Ivy says:
ooooh
Jeremy, u leh
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
im headed for NTU EEE...but not sure if i might change next year
Ivy says:

EEE
actually very competitive there leh
u're interested in engineering isit
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
no prob..i thrive on competition
Ivy says:
haha
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
yep
Ivy says:
haha
loads of foreigners there
wad u plan to work as nxt time engineer
Jeriel leh become a philosopher psychologist
I'll probably be working in biology related fields
jeriel says:
haha i'm going to be a businessman
haha
Ivy says:
are u serious
jeriel says:
entrepenuer or however you spell it
yup~
haha
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
business----philo???
Ivy says:
psycho everyone into giving u business ah
haha
[PhOeNiX]. 2nd YEAR IPPT GOLD SOC PASS! ORD LOH! says:
but philo
Ivy says:
use philo to psycho
haha
jeriel says:
haha philo is to understand the human condition
nothing to do with business
philo is my own interest
[PhOeNiX]. says:
EHHHHH why not take busineszs then?
jeriel says:
business is what i'll succeed in
haha
Ivy says:
wah, so confident
jeriel says:
haha
yup!
cause running other people's business bores me
and i wanna use my time to make my own money and not someone else's
Ivy says:
haha

maybe u should test waters by starting a small business while still studying
as training

jeriel says:
yup i aready did
Ivy says:
wad
wad business
jeriel says:
and it's going well
e-commerce
Ivy says:
elaborate pls

jeriel says:
selling stuff online la
Ivy says:
let me guess, tech stuff
jeriel says:
nope
printed tees
but it's still in the infant stages
Ivy says:
o
jia you jia you
jeriel says:
so we're selling thru recommendations only
haha yup hanks
thanks~
Ivy says:
hanks
[PhOeNiX]. says:
HANKS
Ivy says:
i'm currently searching for a 2 month temp job now

cos hols
[PhOeNiX]. says:
next time i want tees i know who to look for
Ivy says:
yaya
how much ah 1 tee
jeriel says:
haha but it's our original design
dunno if you will like
Ivy says:
what's ur website
jeriel says:
i think 10 to 15 a tee
nope we're designing the webbie now
so no website
but selling on a super micro scale now la
so far we sold like 3?
haha
testing only
haha
Ivy says:
3 sets
not bad la
just early stages
jeriel says:
yea
Ivy says:

jeriel says:
just to get the feel of it la
Ivy says:
so u all still go to church regularly?


jeriel says:
yes of course
do you?
Ivy says:
i think jeremy does
i tink i saw his pics on facebooK with church mates
yups, me too
great!
[PhOeNiX]. says:
ehhh im still here you dun need to think you can ask me
Ivy says:
!
[PhOeNiX]. says:
yep yep i do
jeriel says:
aha
Ivy says:
funny ah
jeriel says:
ok
Ivy says:
i tot u were away

jeriel says:
you guys attend the same church right
Ivy says:
jeriel, i tink jeremy is still here!
[PhOeNiX]. says:
na but you both type very fast
Ivy says:

jeriel says:
oh ya not
Ivy says:
nopes
jeriel says:
jeremy is still at charis?
Ivy says:
charis
jeriel says:
see i rmbr!
haha
[PhOeNiX]. says:
yep...u can rmb my church?
Ivy says:
wah, from p6
jeriel says:
charis assembly or something
Ivy says:
paya lebar
[PhOeNiX]. says:
not bad not bad
Ivy says:

jeriel says:
haha
of course
haha
[PhOeNiX]. says:
or maybe u checked facebook
Ivy says:
nopE@ !!
i rmb lor
u rmb my church
[PhOeNiX]. says:
i rmb urs
jeriel says:
haha
Ivy says:
i can't rmb jeriel's church
[PhOeNiX]. says:
but i cant rmb jeriels
jeriel says:
i rmbr loh
Ivy says:
whoops!
!
[PhOeNiX]. says:
sorry jeriel
Ivy says:

jeriel says:
haha no worries
most ppl dont also
Ivy says:
Jeriel, rmb goin to my house to play catching

jeriel says:
WAIT
Ivy says:
my house kena enblock when in sec3 man
sadded
jeriel says:
V you comfirmed sunday can dinner?
yes of course
huge ground
Ivy says:
wad day ah
jeriel says:
and a lousy swimming pool
Ivy says:
16 may
[PhOeNiX]. says:
yes i rmb too haha...played with ky also
swimming pool with a lot of leaves lol
Ivy says:
oh my! u rmb playing with ky
how u rmb

[PhOeNiX]. says:
can la haha
Ivy says:
ya, swimming pool a lot of leaves
jeriel says:
haha we have good memories
[PhOeNiX]. says:
my memory still can make it
Ivy says:
i have fond memories of playing wrestling by the pool

[PhOeNiX]. says:
anyhow ky was in ajc with me also so we did talk abit
jeriel says:
V rmbr we challenging pull ups in Pri school
haha
Ivy says:

that was uber long ago

[PhOeNiX]. says:
haha yea so maybe we shld challenge again
Ivy says:
u and jeriel challenge ba
jeriel says:
haha i think i'll lose
[PhOeNiX]. says:
hor ippt gold one
Ivy says:
u must give me 6months to train b4 i challenge again
now super chui
[PhOeNiX]. says:
no le...my max maybe 14 now...
Ivy says:
exams never exercise sia
jeriel says:
haha my company has a girl trainee leh
Ivy says:
cca also super slack in physical
[PhOeNiX]. says:
EH REALLY
jeriel says:
haha what CCA?
yea
Ivy says:
canoe polo
jeriel says:
wah
pro!
Ivy says:

girl trainee
must be super man

jeriel says:
haha she's 26 yrs old
and she acts exactly like a guy
haha
Ivy says:
woah!
jeriel says:
like seriously
Ivy says:
butch ah
jeriel says:
yea i guess
Ivy says:

oh wells
[PhOeNiX]. says:
canoe polo where got chui
think ur fitness maybe better than both of us
jeriel says:
haha yea
Ivy says:
well, compared to dragonboat, its 95% less physical

canoe polo is 90% about skill
ya, that's why the focus is on skill
jeriel says:
i got a national dragonboat potential in my section leh
super buff
Ivy says:


ya, super fit right
ya lor
jeriel says:
yea
Ivy says:
i tink i've only seen kah ying once in ntu
i think

[PhOeNiX]. says:
not in contact with her anymore?
Ivy says:
i've seen nafisah 3-5times
erm...not really la

just hi bye
jeriel says:
haha
Ivy says:
but i think should be quite easy to re-establish the friendship
if i put in more effort

i won't be in singapore for the 2nd half of the year
going for exchange
jeriel says:
where?
Ivy says:
so fast

to US
jeriel says:
wah!
Ivy says:
super expensive though
ouch
for my parents is ouch ouch

jeriel says:
ouch
[PhOeNiX]. says:
thats fast....6 mth attachment...very lucky le haha
Ivy says:
YEOuch!!
not attachment
its doing my yr 2 sem 1
attachent=job
yups
jeriel says:
haha
[PhOeNiX]. says:
haha ok
Ivy says:
goin from Aug 10 to Dec 29
abt 5 months
jeriel says:
by the time you come back i finish pro term alr
haha
Ivy says:
pro term
eh, how come the other time the class gathering u both couldn't make it
some army stuff ah
jeriel says:
yep stuck in camp
[PhOeNiX]. says:
i had guard duty
jeriel says:
was in confinement i think
Ivy says:
ooooh

my brother just ORDed ytd

jeriel says:
haha good la
Ivy says:
he's starting work on mon le
shi
shioK
[PhOeNiX]. says:
oohs i rmb ur bro
jeriel says:
i also want to ORD!
[PhOeNiX]. says:
I ORD first!
Ivy says:

Jeremy, how's ur sis
[PhOeNiX]. says:
still fine
shes left with 2 years of schling
jeriel says:
good to hear hat
[PhOeNiX]. says:
she rmbs u jeriel
Ivy says:

her name is Melody right
if i rmb correctly
hmm
[PhOeNiX]. says:
yeap you got good memory
Ivy says:

last time go ur house so often
of course rmb

jeriel says:
haha
[PhOeNiX]. says:
yep...not only visit...seem to recall both of u called my home phone pretty often too
jeriel says:
haha
did we?
Ivy says:

la..not everyda
y
but still relatively often

like 'eh! come down and play leh'

jeriel says:
haha
Ivy says:
Jeriel, i still rmb eating lunch at ur house
and the egg with daoyou
in ur kitchen
[PhOeNiX]. says:
yaya
jeriel says:
haha really
we still do that
Ivy says:
i rmb walking very far to ur house lor
10-15mins

jeriel says:
haha dont have la
[PhOeNiX]. says:
i rmb going to ur hse and playing monopoly with u and ur bro
jeriel says:
my house is just next to school
yea jeremy i rmbr that too
[PhOeNiX]. says:
NOOOOO my house is NEARER
Ivy says:

jeriel says:
and i use to go your house
Ivy says:

jeriel says:
though i forgot what i did there alr
haha
[PhOeNiX]. says:
ehhh i also cant rmb what u did there
Ivy says:
find random stuff to pay
play
and explore Jeremy's house
cos got a lot of treasures
jeriel says:
haha yea mess more like
haha
Ivy says:

jeriel says:
and his terrapins!
Ivy says:
oh ya! i think so...
[PhOeNiX]. says:
mess and terrapins still there
Ivy says:
was there a fish tank by the door
[PhOeNiX]. says:
yep...all the fish have since died
jeriel says:
yea
and his random pets
Ivy says:
Huh mess and terrapins still there !!
[PhOeNiX]. says:
and the tank has been thrown away
yes yes haha
i collect a lot of junk....still do
Ivy says:

jeriel says:
haha
Ivy says:
B-E-A-utiful Memories!
jeriel says:
haha
my house has changed alot though
Ivy says:
lets go play monkey bar after school!

jeriel says:
haha
Ivy says:
just kidding
[PhOeNiX]. says:
lols
Ivy says:
ur house still same block and unit
jeriel says:
yep
but different interior design and deco
[PhOeNiX]. says:
yep for me...jeriel you're still one block and one carpark away from me rigfht?
Ivy says:

don't we have to cross the field to get to jeriel
house
[PhOeNiX]. says:
oh wait...thats 2 blocks and one carpark away
jeriel says:
yep
[PhOeNiX]. says:
9th floor right? or was it 12th?
jeriel says:
10ths
10th
[PhOeNiX]. says:
wah i think we can chat all nite...then next sun we can chat even more! haha
jeriel says:
haha yea
[PhOeNiX]. says:
V fallen asleep?
jeriel says:
haha
i'm reading facebook comments
Ivy says:
nopes
i'm just finding jobs online

jeriel says:
haha
for me it's still far away till i get a job man
[PhOeNiX]. says:
you already have one. youre employed by the SAF
Ivy says:

true
jeriel says:
that's not employment it's torture
Ivy says:
a job whereby most guys wanna quit but can't

[PhOeNiX]. says:
well they pay you to torture u
jeriel says:
haha more like they pay enciks to torture you
my encik's an ass
he act nice only
[PhOeNiX]. says:
at least you get paid, you have food, accomodation, insurance, 14 days of leave and endless possibilities to get charged
jeriel says:
haha
wow
so lucrative
anyway jeremy, after BSLC do we get leave?
[PhOeNiX]. says:
since ure going into entrepreneurship u shld learn from saf
ERM
jeriel says:
haha
[PhOeNiX]. says:
i had 5 days leave
jeriel says:
wah do i get that too!
[PhOeNiX]. says:
block leave...force us clear
jeriel says:
i want!
hahahahhahahha
[PhOeNiX]. says:
think they will give coz they need time to prepare for ASLC and the other vocations spec course
jeriel says:
yea good
i wasted my BMT block leave
[PhOeNiX]. says:
btw come arty join me le...then we can see each other in khatib camp
jeriel says:
haha oh i heard my coy 80% going armour
20% ASLC
i hope i go armour
[PhOeNiX]. says:
when does ur bslc end?
armour shiongz...you will shingz there
jeriel says:
i start on 19th april
i dunno when i end
now i'm just counting to the end of the week
haha
i dont bother about anything else
haha
[PhOeNiX]. says:
im guessing 11 june thereabouts
jeriel says:
idk
i just live for the next moment currently
[PhOeNiX]. says:
hmm i just rmb arty has only intake in oct so you prob wun go there
jeriel says:
i got gypsy next week
[PhOeNiX]. says:
ooh fun
jeriel says:
and wanderer and grandslam the week after
but i got assessed alr
so i hope it's grandslack
[PhOeNiX]. says:
HAHA same as me! grandslam was grandslack for me
2 days out of three days do nth
jeriel says:
serious?
[PhOeNiX]. says:
yeap
jeriel says:
i dont mind being the enemy
hahah
just sit there and shoot
haha
[PhOeNiX]. says:
i got assessed b4 grandslam...so first 2 days of grandslam i was enemy
then third day gotta be matador gunner
jeriel says:
ouch that sucks
for us we rotate the matador
lucky i'm not an organic weapon holder
haha
i'm bed 6!
[PhOeNiX]. says:
i was an m2o3
jeriel says:
haha shag right
m203 sucks too
[PhOeNiX]. says:
ok la
jeriel says:
wah you more zhai than me

[PhOeNiX]. says:
OK la
jeriel says:
wah my combat fitness really chui
SOC cmi sia
haha
[PhOeNiX]. says:
wads ur timing?
jeriel says:
idk
this friday doing full rundown
i swear SOC is the most tiring thing under 10 mins
even worse than 2.4
[PhOeNiX]. says:
yep
so thats why i feel damn shiok after clearing second year soc
haha ok its getting late
jeriel says:
haha
yep
i'm gonna crash
nights!
talk more on sunday!
Ivy says:
nights

yups yups
[PhOeNiX]. says:
so V next sunday dinner can rite?
Ivy says:
yup
anywhere also can
6pm can
jeriel says:
ok see you guys soon!
[PhOeNiX]. says:
we meet at northpoint?
jeriel says:
yes good timing
[PhOeNiX]. says:
jeriel has a place in mind
jeriel says:
i try to get the car
if not have to take bus
it's at sembawang
Ivy says:
where ah
i live in sembawang
jeriel says:
behind sembawang shopping center
[PhOeNiX]. says:
6pm enuf time for u to book injeriel?
jeriel says:
inside the estates
no need book
sure got space
Ivy says:

[PhOeNiX]. says:
nah i meant enuf time for u to go back camp by 2200
jeriel says:
ya should be can la
we finish by 8 la
then sure got time
Ivy says:
if u can't get the car, i think i can get the car..i hope

jeriel says:
haha ok we'll see la
Ivy says:
ok
jeriel says:
V your number got change?
Ivy says:
nopes
91065490
jeriel says:
my army phone is super weird
anyway ok i'll note down
[PhOeNiX]. says:
jeriel can pick me up and we meet u in sembawang
jeriel says:
yep
Ivy says:

jeriel says:
call you then la
[PhOeNiX]. says:
hokay
Ivy says:
urs is 98301010/

jeriel says:
ya
[PhOeNiX]. says:
6pm then
Ivy says:
OKOK
set
bye!
jeriel says:
bye!

jeriel has left the conversation.



YAYNESS to next sunday dinner!

Sometimes its hard to see beyond all the fog.

I told myself this two years would be for me to sort my life out, unconfuse myself...but so far the fog seems to be the same, as think as ever.

Recently the window for local uni applications opened and closed without me doing anything about it. And I still have no idea what to do for the rest of my life.

And more recently people have been telling me what a foolish choice I'm making by choosing NTU electrical engineering, especially with my grades. The typical response would be:


You got XXXX for your A levels?! Why are you choosing NTU EEE? You deserve so much better, you can get into so many better courses? Why waste the opportunity?


This reminds me of the same comments that I heard exactly 3 years ago:

"You got XXXX for O levels?! Why you go XJC??? You deserve so much better! You can get into ZJC, why waste the opportunity?"

And I remember the feelings of regret and subsequent indifference that followed the two years following. Which makes me draw the conclusion, if I make the same mistake this time round, I will have to endure the same feelings for 4 years, double the time.

And then on further rumination I realised that I chose AJC for the same reasons that I chose NTU EEE....which is that almost my whole life, my decisions have been largely made by others for me, but that in the end I have always managed to deceive myself that the decision came from me, that it was all my idea.

But now, I realise when its time for me to make a decision for myself I am at a total loss. Maybe thats why I appear so indecisive at times. Because I don't really know what I want.

So in my quest for answers to my mess, here is the first: I don't know what I want

I'm tired of searching. Sometimes I want to just go out and let myself loose....try ne things, explore possibilities...I don't want to wait for an answer anymore. I just want those desires to be fulfilled now. Because these days I feel that I'm just using up oxygen. I can't seem to find meaning in anything I do anymore.

Maybe thats why clubbing suddenly seems so appealing.

But I know that following the road to my paradise will just leave more heartache and pain....I've been down it before. So I'm trying to find the other road but I can't seem to find it either. All is foggy grey.

So now I'm playing chess with the Almighty...refusing to fight a losing battle so I'm trying to force a quick checkmate, but the other Player just seems to keep perpetual check me. Stalemate.

I don't want to play chess anymore. I want to move on

But I can't. Two feelings seem to reign my waking moments now...loneliness and boredom.

I can't stand it anymore.

Save me



please

So one year has almost passed. And things have a way of coming back atcha the same way the earth does its thing around the sun.

I guess I should count my blessings, but I'm trying hard not to begrudge others theirs...God knows what I'm feeling now. Perhaps its also time to let go of that which I held on for so long...its time to part company, let go and let God.

And this is the time for me really to shut up, because there are far more urgent and critical concerns of others at this point rather than my petty issues. But sometimes I wish I just had one person whom I could pour everything out to. Never ever found such a person yet.

I could talk to God, but its not the same.

One year on and I'm still a sailess rudderless boat in oceans unknown. But I know God is there with me.

I just wish my boat could have more more person...life would be more bearable I guess

One more soul to tread the lonely road with me....and not just a visitor...

But who to take along?

Life's like a message in a bottle....only when its completed its sojourn on the high seas then can its message be read. Before that...one can only hope. and guess, and pray.

I need to pray more, trust more, and believe more

Believe that He makes all things beautiful in His time, not mine
Believe in a Blessed Ever After and a Well Done Good And Faithful Servant.
Believe...help me believe

So tired out today...nearly got into a few blowups with some men in my unit

But physically I grow weaker, hopefully spiritually I grow stronger

Something I posted on my Facebook which I think I'll just put here too.

A personal prayer that expresses my goals, wishes and hopes this new year
By tagging you I wish to encourage and provoke you to think
Just to share


Dear Abba Father

This new year
Full of promise and life
Many things I want,
But only few are needed
and they are the most important

First, dear Father
Grant me the patience to wait
The discipline to pray
The heart to intercede
And the spirit that daily faints
to be in Your presence
Grant me each day my daily bread
And the Water of Life
That I may continually feast
And never hunger again

Grant to me also
A heart of discipleship
Wisdom to guide, sensitivity to needs
My Balm of Gilead,
Grant it that I be a balm to the wounded and hurting
For this world many grieves abound
But only one Joy is sufficient
Give me a heart that weeps for the lost
Remove my complacency, my dismissive spirit
Help me not to judge, not to scorn, not to despise
But help me to be the bearer of Living Water
to parched souls,
cold hearts,
broken spirits
poisoned minds

The paths of life sprawl before me
Myriad, Variant, Transient
Yet whither do I turn
If naught without Thy counsel?
Dearest Shepherd may it be
that You be my compass and map
to shut doors that no man can open
and open doors that no man can shut
least of all myself
That You may lead me along paths of righteousness
Thy Will fulfilled
Thy Word obeyed
Thy Wisdom cherished
Till I reach gloryland

Teach me dear Lord
to see through Thy eyes
pray through Thy Will
care with Thy heart
worship with Thee enthroned
Keep me humble before thy Sovereign Will
Keep me grateful before Calvary
Keep me focussed before Thy Commission
That this year
And evermore
My life may be a sweet aroma to You

In Thou O Father, Son and Spirit
I give thee thanks
MAy it be doNE

17 Feb 2010
Ash Wednesday
First Day of Lent

Bible reading: Matt 6:1-6, 16-21

The practice of faith

What is our motivation for acting out our faith? Here Jesus challenges our notion of Doing good works in order to win recognition and acclaim from the people around us. Comparing the approval and praise of men to "earthly treasures" that will perish in time, Jesus persuades us to aim for our Abba's approval, "the Father who sees in secret will reward you" and to place our treasure in heaven ie the approval of our Lord. We have to realize and seek to please God rather than men. Ultimately, if we serve to please others, our service and faith have no eternal value. Where our treasure is, there our heart will be also.

Applications:
1) Is my service in my ministry and my daily devotion to God genuine and focused on winning the approval of God, not man? Sometimes ministry can be demanding and I can get distracted by the form, not the substance. At the same time, I must be on guard that I am not serving to make myself more popular or attract attention but out of my love for God.

2) How much does other people's view of me affect the way I serve and obey God? Does the opinions of others, negative or positive, make me change my service just to fit them? In the area of outreach, do I just go through the motions to assuage myself, or do I really dare to provoke and challenge my friends out of love for them? Do I dare to make unpopular but Godly decisions?

Commitment:
Do not allow myself to be swayed by emotions or expectations in doing God's work.
Pray for my faith life to be real and genuine such that others around me will also be drawn to the Truth of God's love.

First of all, don't ask about the blogskin

Secondly,
Ash Wednesday is tomorrow

Lent begins

This year a Lent like none other...at least for me

I will be using my blog to record down my reflections too