I'm having one of those inexplicable moodswings again

Inexplicable because I can't rationalise it, can categorize it, and anyhow, its not really my feelings involved, but rather i sense that it is my spirit. So its not a moodswing, its a spiritswing.

Certain things trigger it and its usually the same ones...so its more of my spirit is troubled rather than my heart

The reason? I don't know either. I suspect the reason can be found if I take time to enter what SPDS likes to call the "abyss of our being", the inward man, or the spiritual man...and there the answer can be found at the throne of God who indwells in our spirit.

But then again, I don't want to enter this abyss...this inner silence, inner darkness....partially because i'm lazy, and partially because I kind of dread finding out and hearing the answer.

Complicated.

I do know this much though...as much as the church is now at the turning point of change, my personal life too is also poised for change. Something big is going to happen, but right now, it seems both God and me seems to be waiting for each other to make the first move.

Praise God for this week though...looks like the anointing worked....so I will keep believing, praying, and labouring.

Let there be fruits Lord, and let them remain.
It's all I ask.
As for the other thing You seem to keep nagging me about...shall I make the first move, or wait for You first?