Ok after 10 months in AJC its time to reevaluate my life.
I have come to a conclusion regarding a few points, noted here.
Its useless and counterproductive being emo coz i landed in AJC.
This stupid problem is so frustrating and has affected everything. Now i see what the real problem is. Its not so much the fact that I could have gone to a better college, nor the fact that AJ has its negative sides. Those are the excuses. Teachers lousy, buildings old...all true, but all just excuses.
Whats the real reason then? Its because I cannot bear to fail my expectations, and I cannot bear to lose. So when things go wrong, I blame the college, and every little thing around me. I placed so much importance on self achievement, on striving to outdo everyone, on regaining my "glory". But i'm never satisfied, and I know why all along, but i just refused to face it. Instead of using my God given talents and abilities to honour him, I have tried to do that and achieve my own personal abitions at the same time.
Ok so what now? Obviously Im not gonna spend all these remaining time moping about what has been. Instead i will focus on the blessings i have not the disappointments. And I know the only thing that will ever satisfy me is Christ himself.
No amount of Phds and scholarships, H3 coursese can ever satisfy you. No amount of social work, friendships and CIP is ever going to satisfy your need of loving others and being loved. No amount of hard work, perseverance and willpower will ever buy you eternal happiness.
Only Christ, and ONLY Him alone, can satisfy that.
Its so obvious, you wonder why some Christians are more interested in getting a pay rise, buying the newest condo or furthering their degrees than in pleasing God and doing the work of Christ. How easy to get caught on the temporal things which you can't even take with you when you die, and forget the most important truth of Christ and the eternal importance of sharing this with others.
This is not to say the abovementioned traits aren't good. Its good to work hard towards success, to build strong bonds betwwen friends and family. But compared to Christ, all this is worth nothing. Nothing you can do out of your own effort will ever please you and satisfy your deepest needs.
Only the pursuit of Christ will do. But i've somehow along the way spent too much time on myself rather than God, rather than on letting people experience the love of Christ. Maybe thats why my passion for the Lord keeps fluctuating, because I'm not wholly devoted to the cause of Christ.
The Bible says you cannot serve God and money. Likewise you cannot serve both God and yourself. Initially for new believers it is perfectly understandable if they have problems sacrificing their time and energy to serve God. But I'm not a new christian. Thats why I'm so ashamed.
Now comes the time to decide, live for Christ or live for myself? Clearly the former is the answer but why am I hesitant?
If I want to do great things for God, I must be willing to surrender my ambition, my dreams, my all to Him. This is the crucial deciding point.
Am I ready? I believe I am. Are you?
Perhaps you are a backslidden Christian. Perhaps you've known about Christ but never accepted him as your savior. Perhaps you know nuts about Christianity. Whichever the case, let me just urge you to give your life to Christ.
Perhaps you wonder whats the big deal. All religions are the same right? Not true. The Bible says Jesus said I am the Way the Truth and the Life. No one come through the father except through Me. So either Christianity is abosolutely true, or its absolutely fake.
Man on his own can never reach that satisfaction of the soul by his own effort. But God has done it for us, allowing Christ to die for us to redeem us from our sins. Whoever accepts him as their Saviour will be free from the consequences of sin, which is death and eternal separation from God. This is undoubtedly the most crucial decision anyone has to make, yet its a pity so few of us take it seriously.
Thats why from now on my priority will not be AJC. Nor ODAC, though its the best CCA around. It will be Christ. The apostle Paul once said, I consider all these things rubbish, that I might be found in Christ, and be found in Him. He regarded Christ as everything to him and all else as good as rubbish
The hebrew translated word for rubbish is actually more accurately interpreted as dung. So not only is other things worthless compared to Christ, they are detestable when they hinder us from Christ.
Obviously this requires a total surrender to Christ. But there must be a first step. Accept you need forgiveness from your sins, and that you alone cannot redeem yourself. Accept Christ as the only way to redemption.
I've said enough. But the greatest thing in my entire life will not be my grades or cca or whatever. It would have been knowing Christ. If you want to experience the indescribable joy of having Jesus in your heart, dont wait.
More next time. Tatas!
I have come to a conclusion regarding a few points, noted here.
Its useless and counterproductive being emo coz i landed in AJC.
This stupid problem is so frustrating and has affected everything. Now i see what the real problem is. Its not so much the fact that I could have gone to a better college, nor the fact that AJ has its negative sides. Those are the excuses. Teachers lousy, buildings old...all true, but all just excuses.
Whats the real reason then? Its because I cannot bear to fail my expectations, and I cannot bear to lose. So when things go wrong, I blame the college, and every little thing around me. I placed so much importance on self achievement, on striving to outdo everyone, on regaining my "glory". But i'm never satisfied, and I know why all along, but i just refused to face it. Instead of using my God given talents and abilities to honour him, I have tried to do that and achieve my own personal abitions at the same time.
Ok so what now? Obviously Im not gonna spend all these remaining time moping about what has been. Instead i will focus on the blessings i have not the disappointments. And I know the only thing that will ever satisfy me is Christ himself.
No amount of Phds and scholarships, H3 coursese can ever satisfy you. No amount of social work, friendships and CIP is ever going to satisfy your need of loving others and being loved. No amount of hard work, perseverance and willpower will ever buy you eternal happiness.
Only Christ, and ONLY Him alone, can satisfy that.
Its so obvious, you wonder why some Christians are more interested in getting a pay rise, buying the newest condo or furthering their degrees than in pleasing God and doing the work of Christ. How easy to get caught on the temporal things which you can't even take with you when you die, and forget the most important truth of Christ and the eternal importance of sharing this with others.
This is not to say the abovementioned traits aren't good. Its good to work hard towards success, to build strong bonds betwwen friends and family. But compared to Christ, all this is worth nothing. Nothing you can do out of your own effort will ever please you and satisfy your deepest needs.
Only the pursuit of Christ will do. But i've somehow along the way spent too much time on myself rather than God, rather than on letting people experience the love of Christ. Maybe thats why my passion for the Lord keeps fluctuating, because I'm not wholly devoted to the cause of Christ.
The Bible says you cannot serve God and money. Likewise you cannot serve both God and yourself. Initially for new believers it is perfectly understandable if they have problems sacrificing their time and energy to serve God. But I'm not a new christian. Thats why I'm so ashamed.
Now comes the time to decide, live for Christ or live for myself? Clearly the former is the answer but why am I hesitant?
If I want to do great things for God, I must be willing to surrender my ambition, my dreams, my all to Him. This is the crucial deciding point.
Am I ready? I believe I am. Are you?
Perhaps you are a backslidden Christian. Perhaps you've known about Christ but never accepted him as your savior. Perhaps you know nuts about Christianity. Whichever the case, let me just urge you to give your life to Christ.
Perhaps you wonder whats the big deal. All religions are the same right? Not true. The Bible says Jesus said I am the Way the Truth and the Life. No one come through the father except through Me. So either Christianity is abosolutely true, or its absolutely fake.
Man on his own can never reach that satisfaction of the soul by his own effort. But God has done it for us, allowing Christ to die for us to redeem us from our sins. Whoever accepts him as their Saviour will be free from the consequences of sin, which is death and eternal separation from God. This is undoubtedly the most crucial decision anyone has to make, yet its a pity so few of us take it seriously.
Thats why from now on my priority will not be AJC. Nor ODAC, though its the best CCA around. It will be Christ. The apostle Paul once said, I consider all these things rubbish, that I might be found in Christ, and be found in Him. He regarded Christ as everything to him and all else as good as rubbish
The hebrew translated word for rubbish is actually more accurately interpreted as dung. So not only is other things worthless compared to Christ, they are detestable when they hinder us from Christ.
Obviously this requires a total surrender to Christ. But there must be a first step. Accept you need forgiveness from your sins, and that you alone cannot redeem yourself. Accept Christ as the only way to redemption.
I've said enough. But the greatest thing in my entire life will not be my grades or cca or whatever. It would have been knowing Christ. If you want to experience the indescribable joy of having Jesus in your heart, dont wait.
More next time. Tatas!
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