Last Saturday's worship team hosted a most upbeat and refreshing song...titled All Things New by True Worshippers. It was just so full of exuberance and joyful rejoicing that I had to find out more.

I was in for a little surprise.

Contrary to what I had expected, "True worshippers" turned out to be a band not from the States, or from Europe, where Christianity is by tradition one of the major religions, but surprise, they were from Indonesia

Surprising because you wouldnt expect Indonesia, where the vast majority is muslim, and where racial unrest is all too common, to have a rich enough Christian culture to produce....well

But here they are, testament to the Holy Spirit's mighty moving in the nations of the world. Enjoy, give thanks, and rejoice:)

I'm having one of those inexplicable moodswings again

Inexplicable because I can't rationalise it, can categorize it, and anyhow, its not really my feelings involved, but rather i sense that it is my spirit. So its not a moodswing, its a spiritswing.

Certain things trigger it and its usually the same ones...so its more of my spirit is troubled rather than my heart

The reason? I don't know either. I suspect the reason can be found if I take time to enter what SPDS likes to call the "abyss of our being", the inward man, or the spiritual man...and there the answer can be found at the throne of God who indwells in our spirit.

But then again, I don't want to enter this abyss...this inner silence, inner darkness....partially because i'm lazy, and partially because I kind of dread finding out and hearing the answer.

Complicated.

I do know this much though...as much as the church is now at the turning point of change, my personal life too is also poised for change. Something big is going to happen, but right now, it seems both God and me seems to be waiting for each other to make the first move.

Praise God for this week though...looks like the anointing worked....so I will keep believing, praying, and labouring.

Let there be fruits Lord, and let them remain.
It's all I ask.
As for the other thing You seem to keep nagging me about...shall I make the first move, or wait for You first?

Time is a dragonfly
Sometimes it flies
on iridescently blurred wings
Sometimes it crawls
Metallic legs creak

Time is a shadow
Ever growing
Longer, shorter,
The same each morning

Time is a gift
To treasure and keep
But also
To part with and give away

Time is an exam
endless rustling of pages
pens scratching on paper
a thousand focussed souls
red digits flashing
tick tock tick tock

Time is God's test
The topics are patience
trust, wisdom
The invigilators are
boredom, suffering, dryness
The passing mark is contentment
The reward is eternal

Time
Is created duration
Eternity
is uncreated dimension
Which will you live for?

A friend on facebook once made a comment: everywhere i look, i get the feeling that the world is advancing while we are stuck in stasis

I couldn't agree more

Recently, it feels as if my life has simply stopped while the rest of the world continues at its hectic pace. Friends are already in university, having new experiences, new lessons, new lives. Some are going overseas to study. Everyone seems to be advancing on with live while we are spending 2 years in semi isolation and statis

A few events this week made me realise how bad it had gotten

1) My cousin just celebrated his daughter's 1 month, and I had totally no idea that he and his wife were even expecting a kid

2) One of my close friends is leaving in a week and I realised I didn't spend as much time with her as I'd hoped.

3) I still don't know what to do with my life, even after these few months of praying

4) Events in church happen so fast I'm usually unaware of them until after they happen

My only hope is for my remaining 17 months that my life will progress and not remain in statis. Only this time I have to actively pursue purpose in not letting the ime just slip by.

So God help me.

Just felt like sharing this cool song Yiggie intro-ed to me....its super funny and catchy, lighthearted and yet at the same time with a simple wonderful message of who God is.

If Much truth is said in jest, then more truth is sung in comedy:)

Just came back from camp for a while to rest before booking in again.

I originally wanted to blog about matthew's farewell, but i'll think i'll leave that to the weekend

I just want to share a song that was performed for matt at the farewell...I guess they chose it because it reflected his life's desire, but strangely I feel that this song has also spoken to me....and made me realise a bit more about my heart's desire.

Here it is