I had a enjoyable escape from reality yesterday evening. i happened to pick up a book on Sherlock Holmes, and subsequently spent the rest of the evening immersed into 19th century London and 221B Baker Street, watching the master sleuth and his clueless sidekick Dr Watson trash the London Police infinity:nil in the investigations department. Honestly i've always wondered what Sherlock Holmes would do if he lived instead in the 21st century. Back in the 19th century they didn't even know the significance of fingerprints. Of course his incarnations today are many and varied, and he has been ressurected by authors like Agatha Christie, Alfred Hitchcock and others. Still the charm and igneguity the original posesses still endears him to many people. Hats off to writer Sir Arthur Conan Doyle...too bad we didn't do him as a groundbreaker.

Today we got back our promo results and i had mixed feelings. I did well enough to promote and hopefully retain my Alpha, but the results aren't that great.

General Paper:
B 69% (promos)
B 68.2% (overall)

H1 Econs:
S 41.8% (promos)
S 40.7% (overall)

H2 Maths:
D 53.0% (promos)
D 50.9% (overall)

H2 Physics:
A 75.5% (promos)
A 74.2% (overall)

H2 Chemistry:
B 63.5% (promos)
B 60.3% (overall)

H1 Chinese:
E 45.2% (promos)
E 45.3% (overall)

Total rank points: 61.25 out of 80

That ain't so great. But its an improvement from midyear when my rank points was only 33. still its lousy enough. I was hoping for a better score at chemistry but considering i studied last minute, not much can be demanded.

I managed to make the grade or miss the grade by a bit for all subjects. so quite heng in that sense. But I must improve by a lot to get back good grades.

Well its over. Really thank God that all of this has passed and I can promote. For a few months I was constantly worrying if i would retain. Thankfully God is always faithful.

Now time to chiong PW and Chinese which I really must clear at all costs.

Oh dear how i wish i was sherlock holmes. That man is a born genius.

After 3 hours of reading angst ridden teen blogs i need a break.

Can't people find something more cheerful to write about? haha after a while all this emoing gets a little tedious.

Anyway heres a pic of my baby cousin:) haha isn't he cute?

Of course la he's my cousin what! haha...

And my other cousin.....

more photos soon! :)

Haha I'm blogging again......

Yesterday we celebrated my Aunt's, my cousin and my birthday in a mega birthday bash haha but more on that next post.

Today I just want to comment on the chinese service I attended today. Because I missed service on saturday and I had Chariskidz on Sunday morning, so I had to attend the cantonese chinese service, at Shekinah. So I prompty left Chariskidz at 1030 hrs and went down for service.

I soon was prompty lost because I had forgotten that the service was in Cantonese mainly and not chinese. Initially it was a bit difficult to change channel but it was ok. I would just like to point out some differences between their service and my usual one.

First, the people at shekinah have twice the energy of us youths, even though most are 4 times older than us. I was welcomed promptly without any hestitance and the people were very warm. Now i wonder why we youths are so lethargic when it comes to service. Pastor has to coax us out of our seats to welcome each other when at Shekinah, they do it spontaneously.

Second, there is a real communal sense in their worship, and I could see all were truly enjoying worshipping God. I also worshipped God and enjoyed it though all I could sing was the Halleluia refrain coz my cantonese is so bad. But I realised when you really put your heart into worshipping God, there is no barrier to it, definitely not a communication barrier.

Third, their community. These elderly and chinese folks care for one another they way we don't do. The sense of caring for each other really is palpable, unlike we youths when we are so cold sometimes

Its so different with us youths. Sometimes we can be so hypocritical and complacent. Sometimes we can also be warm and welcoming. But I won't deny youth needs a serious wake up call. We have dwindled over the years and now we are so small already. We have so many people missing; people like Jia En, huihui, eilene, jerome, alex, justin etc... we also have ppl who should be with us but aren't like kian hee, cynthia, weizheng, william and more.

The flame of the youth ministry is almost dead. Starved of fellowship, God's word and the communion of God's people, our members are dying off. New life has come in but its just replacing ppl if we keep doing this. What do we do?

I have the answer.

But I'm not posting it now or here.

Bye!

Ok after 10 months in AJC its time to reevaluate my life.



I have come to a conclusion regarding a few points, noted here.



Its useless and counterproductive being emo coz i landed in AJC.

This stupid problem is so frustrating and has affected everything. Now i see what the real problem is. Its not so much the fact that I could have gone to a better college, nor the fact that AJ has its negative sides. Those are the excuses. Teachers lousy, buildings old...all true, but all just excuses.



Whats the real reason then? Its because I cannot bear to fail my expectations, and I cannot bear to lose. So when things go wrong, I blame the college, and every little thing around me. I placed so much importance on self achievement, on striving to outdo everyone, on regaining my "glory". But i'm never satisfied, and I know why all along, but i just refused to face it. Instead of using my God given talents and abilities to honour him, I have tried to do that and achieve my own personal abitions at the same time.

Ok so what now? Obviously Im not gonna spend all these remaining time moping about what has been. Instead i will focus on the blessings i have not the disappointments. And I know the only thing that will ever satisfy me is Christ himself.

No amount of Phds and scholarships, H3 coursese can ever satisfy you. No amount of social work, friendships and CIP is ever going to satisfy your need of loving others and being loved. No amount of hard work, perseverance and willpower will ever buy you eternal happiness.

Only Christ, and ONLY Him alone, can satisfy that.

Its so obvious, you wonder why some Christians are more interested in getting a pay rise, buying the newest condo or furthering their degrees than in pleasing God and doing the work of Christ. How easy to get caught on the temporal things which you can't even take with you when you die, and forget the most important truth of Christ and the eternal importance of sharing this with others.

This is not to say the abovementioned traits aren't good. Its good to work hard towards success, to build strong bonds betwwen friends and family. But compared to Christ, all this is worth nothing. Nothing you can do out of your own effort will ever please you and satisfy your deepest needs.

Only the pursuit of Christ will do. But i've somehow along the way spent too much time on myself rather than God, rather than on letting people experience the love of Christ. Maybe thats why my passion for the Lord keeps fluctuating, because I'm not wholly devoted to the cause of Christ.

The Bible says you cannot serve God and money. Likewise you cannot serve both God and yourself. Initially for new believers it is perfectly understandable if they have problems sacrificing their time and energy to serve God. But I'm not a new christian. Thats why I'm so ashamed.

Now comes the time to decide, live for Christ or live for myself? Clearly the former is the answer but why am I hesitant?

If I want to do great things for God, I must be willing to surrender my ambition, my dreams, my all to Him. This is the crucial deciding point.

Am I ready? I believe I am. Are you?

Perhaps you are a backslidden Christian. Perhaps you've known about Christ but never accepted him as your savior. Perhaps you know nuts about Christianity. Whichever the case, let me just urge you to give your life to Christ.

Perhaps you wonder whats the big deal. All religions are the same right? Not true. The Bible says Jesus said I am the Way the Truth and the Life. No one come through the father except through Me. So either Christianity is abosolutely true, or its absolutely fake.

Man on his own can never reach that satisfaction of the soul by his own effort. But God has done it for us, allowing Christ to die for us to redeem us from our sins. Whoever accepts him as their Saviour will be free from the consequences of sin, which is death and eternal separation from God. This is undoubtedly the most crucial decision anyone has to make, yet its a pity so few of us take it seriously.

Thats why from now on my priority will not be AJC. Nor ODAC, though its the best CCA around. It will be Christ. The apostle Paul once said, I consider all these things rubbish, that I might be found in Christ, and be found in Him. He regarded Christ as everything to him and all else as good as rubbish

The hebrew translated word for rubbish is actually more accurately interpreted as dung. So not only is other things worthless compared to Christ, they are detestable when they hinder us from Christ.

Obviously this requires a total surrender to Christ. But there must be a first step. Accept you need forgiveness from your sins, and that you alone cannot redeem yourself. Accept Christ as the only way to redemption.

I've said enough. But the greatest thing in my entire life will not be my grades or cca or whatever. It would have been knowing Christ. If you want to experience the indescribable joy of having Jesus in your heart, dont wait.

More next time. Tatas!

Once again im back.

Been a bit moody recently....when there's nothing to be emo about...its just so irrational...

Apart from dat today was pretty fun

We went to castle beach to build sandcastles haha even though ours was not really as fantastic as the rest but still can pass de...

Altogether quite fun....if i hadn't been so moody it would have been better. Today I think i a bit cranky i keep doing wierd stuff again.

This must stop. Now.

Yesterday i was very irritated by a certain CCA's marketing technique for tomorrow's open house...this was part of their marketing manifesto:

We must persuade students to come to AJC, even if they come just because of our CCA."


Don't you find that very selfish and narrowminded? Its like saying come our JC coz of our CCA, don't worry about other factors! our CCA can be the only reason why u come to AJC.

What if in the end they cant make it into that jc? what will they do? And is AJ so lousy that we have to persuade ppl to come just because a particular CCA is good?

I dont want to say anymore.

Very tired today

Talking to pastor also tiring le.

coming home hearing my family scream at each other also tiring

sleeping also tiring....i've been having more nightmares these days

YEEEAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! BLOG REVIVED!!!

After a hiatus of more than 6 months im back in action yeah! haven't blogged for so long i almost forgot i had a blog:)

Promos being just over last week, i have plenty of time on my hands now so im taking it easy...

Yesterday after eating at Sumo ( only us not Arif) I went to play pool for the first time with Arif, ts, nicholas, kaiwei.....and got royally trashed. Nicholas won 10 out of 11 games...only Arif beat him. Arif lost to me 2:1 when he made mistakes with the black ball haha....first time he sunk the ball in the wrong hole, second time he sunk the ball in the RIGHT hole but the white ball decided to play follow the leader and rolled into the hole too....haha so i won 2 games out of 9 by fluke.

I lost the other seven.

I think im off form.

Nicholas is good le then he still say he not good haha.

Nvm next time we go bowling....hopefully my hands will remember their skill lol.

Then today we went SUMO again....with munchee, nicholas, yh and yf......SUMO is good food but very salty and unheathy.....if i keep eating I'm really gonna be SUMO size soon...

haha like that will ever happen....my BMI is still a heathy 16.8, and fat percentage is single digit.

Today yh and yf and nic also asked me to pray for them.....so i said ok.....then i asked yh why she think my prayer will work then she said as long as u believe in it it wll work.

I happen to disagree. If I believe this blog doesn't exist, it doesn't mean it doesn't exist just coz i dun believe it exists.....

Anyway the hope is one day....just one day.....ok never mind

Recently I've been praying...and thinking...much about what it means to be a Christian in these last days...I've read a lot of biblical prophecy too and increasingly i've been convicted that the time is short.....ok more on that next time.

Jiayous my church O level peeps! May God grant you the wisdom and peace and Joy of the Lord be with you!