Recently, the draining feeling's come back

I suppose it was to be expected, coz Christmas is the time to get really really stressed...at least for me.

Christmas PArties, Youth Camp, Christmas Choir, fellowships, and to top it all off, having to come with unit life in a new army posting. Doesn't help much that the J2s are still finishing A's and the younger ones need guidance. not that i'm blaming anyone.

But its taxing, and sometimes though you know its not true, you feel like terribly alone and burdened.

And recently my output has been mega-outstripping my input. So i need to pay attention to my source of strength. I need to learn how to be a Mary once again. I've played Martha for too long.

But I know this one thing....for the rest of my time here I remain committed, and to my last breath I will fight on. Even if it doesn't seem to make a difference.

I was not commanded to be successful, just faithful.

And so I will carry on. And work to inspire, to unite, to challenge, to rekindle, to love, to care, to learn, to be teachable,to be Mary and sit at the feet of the Master.

At the end I want to hear "well done, good and faithful servant" from the only One whose praise matters to me.

I will go on.